You know, it seems like I’ve been blogging more lately. It definitely makes me happy to keep my blog active. After all, I love blogging, I really do. Its fun! Plus, I gets things off my chest. Its free expression. I can just… let loose. Yeah, I know that no one really reads my blogs or anything, but its nice to just let the feelings out and be free.

A lot has been going on in my life right now. Things are really changing. I’m really dealing with a lot. I’m experiencing new feelings that I don’t know how to explain. Maybe its love, but I doubt that. I don’t know though. Everything in my life is just so crazy. Things are up and down. My feelings are the same. In a way, I wish prince charming would come around. Just pick me up and save the day. I guess that’s kind of silly to say though, huh?

Right now, I’m feeling dizzy with thoughts and confusions. I’m feeling over whelmed and somewhat lost. I feel found and lost at the same time. It feels like nothing is right and everything is wrong. Saying that, it feels like things are perfect with no errors. Everything is so confusing. I don’t know how to explain it at this point.

I have a lot going on in my life and I’m not sure how… I’m not sure if this is right. Is this a good change or a bad? Will I benefit or hurt? My heart is tangled and so are my feelings.

I’m just babbling now. xD So I’ll stop. I guess I feel feel the need to try to work this out and typing it out is like talking about it. It helps. Even if most of this makes no sense to anyone who reads. Its helping me in some crazy messed up way! lol